HT camp
how long has it been since i blogged? :D
HT camp was REALLY a GETaway, but in the end, i felt …. weird!
jetskiing- i got injured the very first time i was on the ski bob, ): anh thanh “kinda” throw me and Vincent in the middle of the lake! my neck was like broken after that, second time, LOC did it again, it was me and Thu, haha, i could not move my neck the rest of the weekend!
food - was awesome like always, cos we have anh hai and chi lien, :D
bonding - this really is the thing made me feel weird, tam tinh in thieu nhi always has been something that i enjoyed so much, this time was no exception. but somehow, i felt left out after all!!!! i felt like i’m not one of them. there was like a distance between me and the rest, and that feeling is not GOOD at all! so failed!
i learned some really good lessons though:
1. crying in front of someone (well i didn’t cry), the lesson was from anh thanh: a person only cries in front of you, ONLY if that person really trusts in you, and you have to appreciate that with all your heart! i’ve never think of crying that way. but i think it’s really true, looking back, i haven’t cried in front of a friend before, or even with my family, maybe it’s just that i’m guy, or maybe it’s just that i dont trust anyone enough. this is funny, and ridiculous. i made a big deal out of trusting with a friend of mine, she said she never trusts anyone. now i realized i’m just kinda like her? uhm, idk, i do trust ppl, a lot, sometime really easily (gullable like someone once said). another that came to my mind when i learned this lesson was that how many people have cried in front of me? uhm, some! and it kinda made me happy for a sec, at least someone “did” trust me enough.
2. the purpose of being a HT: bringing may em closer to God, make ‘em love God, like i do, so does every HT. this is not new! i had got this idea since i was a NS. but during this weekend, i really “feel” it, the right way. i hope this would help me in the future.
3. do my work on time! i’ve been lacking off, i’ve been lazy. like chinhster said, we’re kinda young, we always do stuff when we’re in the mood for DOING it, otherwise we don’t. uhmm, it’s true, but i think i’ll have to learn “to be in the mood” even if i’m not, so i can get stuff done, and not disappoint anyone anymore, or even myself.
4. learn from my friends. i’m 19, meaning that i’m still “young” ;). i always try to make myself better by learning from everyone with every chance that i have. after this weekend, i learned that my friends are the ones i should really learn from. i have to look up to them and make myself better. HTs that are older than me, they are so passionate. HTs that are same aged as me, they are so energetic. HTs that are younger than me, (there’s only one haha), has the fire, like anh T.A. said. and i can feel that fire too. the thing is that i can’t feel my own fire, or maybe i dont even have one.
5. people around me always think of me as a new Catholic, when they’re asked what is the best thing about thinh u can think of, they automatically say, he’s role model for all of us, he’s new Catholic, he goes to church everyday. uhmm, this is actually true, this actually is something that makes me proud. but this is ALSO the only thing that people say about me. and i dont want that. it makes me feel that beside the fact that i’m a new Catholic, i’m nothing else.
6. i learned how TNTT has changed my life, totally. basically all of my closest friends right now are from tntt, i hang out with tntters, i love one of the tntters. i look up to tntters. i’m loved by tntters. tntters gives me memories, sometimes good sometimes bad. 2 years ago, tntt means nothing, now, tntt means everything. i’m wondering is that a destiny that God has planned for me?
well i think i’m done. i’m supposed to write some paragraphs right now, for my hw, which is due in an hour, haha, instead i’m blogging. faileeedd !?!?!?
